Where we are.

It's been a long time since I 'really' updated. Well here's how life is going...BUSY. The semester is about 1/2 way over and I'm making all A's(barely)! Well, me and hunter are back together. It's a longgggg story and I really want to leave it off the blog. But the jest of it, is that he really just doesn't know how to put his priorities on top of that, add to that 16 credit hours of school, and 35 hrs of work a week. So we are going to counseling, and things are slowly getting better. We've found an apartment, and will be looking at it some time next week. So hopefully we will be moved in by November! Which, I know it sounds a little drastic, because of everything that has happened lately, but we had to. My mom can't afford the house, so she's going to have to move into an apartment, and 5 people in a 2-3 bedroom apartment will just not work. So we got a really good deal with a garage apartment from a lady my mom works with it's $400 a month, which already includes utilities! So we are definitely taking the offer up, because right now we just can't afford a 'normal' apartment. We're definitely excited, but this means I will have to work at least 3 days a week, so I'm in the search of a job. Luckily, I had enough pell grant to last us about 6 months, in the case I don't find a job. But i've been putting in applications! So we're hoping! Emerson is doing great and almost walking! She has her 9 month check up Monday, so I will post on it then! :D

When life gets hard.

Being pregnant in High School, that was hard.
Working 40+ while pregnant, that was hard.
Working 40+ and going to school full time from, 5-8 months pregnant, that was hard.
17 hours of natural labor, that was hard.
 Pushing for 3 hours, that was hard.
Going under the knife and having a child taken out of me, that was hard.
Recovery, even harder.
Breastfeeding, the hardest thing i've ever done.
Quitting breastfeeding? That was even harder.
Now, life is about to be getting a whole lot harder.
Why? Me and Hunter are both going to school full time this fall! It's official everything is basically worked out schedule wise!
Going to school, and leaving Emerson, will with out a doubt be the hardest thing i've done in my life. Being with her pretty much every moment of the first 7 months of her life, and now having to be away from her is going to be tough. But I know it's needed and will deffinately get us ahead and have a much better future for emerson. So here is our hectic schedule for this semester-

Mondays- I don't have class, so I'll stay home with Emerson. Hunter has an 8:15 class, and his last class ends at 3. Then he'll go to work at 4.

Tuesdays- My first class starts at 8:15 and my last one ends at 2:30, Hunter only has one class that day that starts at 3 and ends at 5. So he's gonna keep her and then we're gonna meet half way, i'll take Emerson, and he'll go to class. Then he'll come home and we'll go to bible study at choices!

Wednesday- My only class is from 8:15 - 10:30, Hunter's first class starts at 9, so he's gonna drop Emerson off at my Nana's (She lives in East Ridge, half way between our house and Hunter's school) and soon as I get off I'll go pick Emerson up. Hunter's last class gets out at 3, so then he'll go to work at 4.

Thursdays - My first class starts at 8:15 and my last class ends at 3. Hunter's first one starts at 9, so he's gonna drop Emerson off at his sister's apartment (in East Brainered, it's totally out of the way but she's free) and then I will pick her up when I get out. Hunter's last class ends at 5 that day, so we will get that night together.

Fridays -  I don't have class, so I'll stay home with Emerson. Hunter has an 11am class, and his last class ends at 3. Then he'll go to work at 4.


So that's our schedule, it starts this next week! I am unbelievably nervous and excited. But most of all I'm glad. I'm thankful, that we are both in school, and everything worked out for us to be. It's gonna be hard, but we're gonna make it work. 

For thos sentimental nights.

Emerson goes to bed at 9 and Hunter doesn't get home untill 10 at the earliest, but most nights it's more like 11pm. So that is my me time. Most of the time I wander around the internet, and tonight I found a poem that I love! I loved the line where it says we 'house their bodies but not their souls' It's just beautiful to think that my daughter will someday grow up to be a beautiful young lady, a wife, and a mother. But it's also wierd, kind of like when your pregnant you know the baby, but you don't know what they look like, or who they really are. But you love them. I just believe that no matter where my child ends up, what her thoughts are, what her sould is like, I will love her and always be there. It's thrilling to see what Emerson will turn into, a curious toddler? Or will she be shy? Will she be outspoken or play to herself? Will she want to play sports or be musicians like us? Will she enjoy being an only child for a while? Or will she ever have a sibling? Will she be like us when we were young? It's hard to say, but we will see. It's odd to imagine how she will change thru out the future, near and far. But I don't want to know anytime soon, I enjoy her now. Her big eyes, the deep belly laughs, and the way she's so happy to meet new people. I enjoy every moment, because they will not last.


Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts.
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday. 
-Gibran

 

making a move.

well hopefully!
Since my parent's are getting divorced my mom doesn't wont to live in the same house, which I understand. Sooo! We've been talking and we're thinking about getting a bigger house with either

A. A mother in law apartment for me hunter and emerson

or

B. A big basement, with at least a bathroom and two rooms for us to have.

So we've been looking! And i'm super excited. We've agreed that we(me and hunter) would pay for electric and water. And mom the rent. But we can't do anything until the divorce is final so it could be awhile. But still I'm excited for the fact that we could have our own space. We decided to do this, because we couldn't afford an apartment if I didn't work. And I'm not able to work because emerson can't go to daycare this semester and i'm having trouble finding a sitter for the 2-3 days i'm at school. But I'm excited! If this does happen, we plan on staying there until hunter graduates 4-5 years, which mean Emerson would probably be in kindergarten, so we while we look for a new house we have to pay attention to school zoning. It makes me excited to just see how everything will turn out!

Did you know? 10 things you may or may not have known.

1. We got pregnant at 17.

• Yes. 17. We are TEEN PARENTS (but please don't stereo type me with the girls of 16 and pregnant). I was 18 when Emerson was born, and Hunter was 17.

2. I'm 1/2 way to completing my Associates Degree in Health Information Technology.

•  Hopefully (cross your fingers) I will graduate in Dec 2013! 

3. We regularly attend a Pregnancy Crisis Center.

•  Choices PRC (former AAA Womens). We go to bible study there every Tuesdays. This place has been the biggest help and blessing to us. We went to parenting, birthing, and baby classes there thru-out my entire pregnant. Without this place we wouldn't have been able to offer Emerson all we can. 

4. We live with my mom. But we 100% take care of our daughter.

• I read on someones twitter the other day that her mom had a monitor in her moms room, so she can wake up with her baby. I didn't get it. My mom doesn't take care of MY kid. I DO. It really angers me to see grandmas raising grand-kids. 

5. I'm obsessed with coupon-ing!

•  It's really how we afford our groceries! I love saving money, and pairing sales. I try to make the most of what income we have. 

6. I'm a stay at home mom, for now.

•  While I do go to school. I don't have a job. It's been a mess trying to find another job. But I know it will come in time.

7. I'm a car seat safety Nazi.

• It saddens me when parents don't even read the manual, or strap their children in tight enough. It's a chest clip (not a belly clip). I'm pro- extended rear facing.

8. We go to concerts all the time.

• Emerson's 5 months old and she's been to over 15 concerts. Granted, her daddy is in the CSOYO and UTC's band. But she's definitely a music baby. 

*I'm really trying to update often and blog more!