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at the moment, and pretty much all day, we've been in this chair. Why? my guesses.

Allergies.
Bad Reaction to Shots.
or She's Getting Sick.


But really I have no clue.

No fever, but she's had tylenol. Runny nose. Watery Eyes. Lots of drool. and being so fussy it's pitiful. So we're checking her temp every hour and doing lots of cuddling. Poor sick baby :(

6 month check up

Today Emerson had her 6 month well check/shots :( But it went real well!

Diet: Usually a 5 oz bottle, and about 2 jars of baby food a day! Mostly just fruits or vegies! But we have been giving her like pieces of little fruit, such as watermelon or cantaloupe!

Weight: 16 lbs 10 oz! hasn't quite doubled her birth weight yet. but she's in the 50th percentile!

Height: 26.5 inches,  75 percentile!

Favorite Toys: She loves balls! and keys! She also loves her johnny jumper! she likes swinging from it.

Active: She's sitting up and rolling everywhere! not quite crawling yet, but she tries pulling up on things!

Sleep Habits: Not good? hah. She still goes to bed around 9:30, but wakes up about 3-4 times because her paci fell out, and then sometimes we have to cuddle her back to sleep.

Over all her doctor's visit was great! Her doctor told me that I needed to start feeding her baby food while we eat, so she'll get into the routine of 3 meals a day! And she also asked me if she was rear facing (well, duh!) and then she proceeded to tell me that it's now recommended to keep them rearfacing for well over a year! Which surprised me because most doctors are just like well as long as they're 22 lbs. But it went great! It was the first time hunter got to go with us, because he didn't have to be at work until 4. After the appointment we went to Pie Slingers, a pizza place where hunter's friends work, so we got free lunch! and it was yummy! Then we came home, and Emerson has been asleep for about an hour! :)

Sorry for the Silence.

This has been a rough week. I've always struggled with pretty bad anxiety. But when I got pregnant, a lot of it went away. After I had Emerson, I showed no signs of postpartum depression. Until, I quit breastfeeding. I quit at 8 weeks, so 2 months. I then, mainly got depressed, because I felt like I had failed my daughter. I never told my doctor, because honestly I'm afraid to admit it. I'm not one to take a lot of medicines. So I didn't bring it up. After I began looking into why I had a c-section, I began stressing. Add the fact that I went back to school full time and my parents are in the middle of a divorce and I've been pretty stressed out. Well within the past week, my anxiety is back. I'm nervous to leave the house, then I get stressed that I'm staying here too long, then I randomly get nervous that hunter will leave. I'm just anxious all the time. I'm always on edge. I know what triggered it. I haven't had a period since may. So as of yesterday, I've missed two. I've switched birth control (which has made me gain a lot of weight). But I've taken two tests so I don't think I'm pregnant. But just the thought that I could've been has made my anxiety come back and i'm just trying to snap back. It's been a rough week and I'm trying to get out of the rut. I've got to go back to the doctor in a few weeks so I think I'm gonna try to get an IUD because we cannot get pregnant right now and I'm just so scarred I will. I've just been on edge. So sorry for the silence. I've got some posts planned so stay tuned!

family traditions

yesterday we got Emerson's pictures made in the "yellow dress". This dress was made for my mom, by her aunt when she was a baby, even though we can't find the picture of my mom in it. But ever since my mom was born every girl in my family got their picture made in it. My mom's daughters and nieces. But Emerson was the first granddaughter! It was a special moment and emerson enjoyed every moment of it. Here's some pics!

and some outakes....

Emerson, my mom, Me, and my sister :)

3 generations of girls

bittersweet.

Well today marks July 2nd, which was the deadline for many things. It was the deadline when we were supposed to be moving into an apartment. We were supposed to have sold the truck by now. And it was the day I had to go to the school to talk about daycare. I don't really talk about my future plans all that much, because honestly, I am doing what I've always wanted to be doing, being a mom, specifically a stay at home mom. Since, I was a little girl, all I wanted to do was take care of babies, cook, and grocery shop. It's what I love doing. I am so thankful to be able to be doing it right now. But as we all know, in the economy, it's selfish for me not to go to college. Although, I do not want to. Hunter's really smart. He's going to a university on a full ride (we got lucky). He's majoring in mechanical engineering. That's his thing, scholastic's, science, books. Me, I'd rather take care of a home. But while he's in college and grad school, I need a job, a good enough job to support us for a few years, so I'm going to a 2 year tech school. I'm not ashamed of that, so many people are, I'd just rather not go. But I know I have too. But anyway, I had to go today, because my adviser told me about this program, that helps low income families pay for childcare while the parent attends school. Which is something we need, since I'm about halfway thru college, I have to go Tuesdays and Thursdays 9am-3:30pm and Wednesdays 9-11am. Hunter has no control over his schedule, and will most likely go every single day. Therefore it's gonna be pretty hard to alternate, even though he's requesting to only have MWF classes. So we applied for this program, but since my parents claimed me on their taxes last year, because I didn't have a child yet, we have to include their income on it, even though, they pay nothing for Emerson (they shouldn't) or us, we pay our groceries, and such. But we still have to count their income, which means we probably wont qualify for the program. So that means Emerson probably wont be going to daycare this fall. Which I'm happy about, but we're not sure what the plans are for the fall. We're hoping and praying that hunter will only have MWF classes, and his sister (She's an ER nurse so she only works 3 12-hour shifts each week) can keep her on Wednesday morning until I get out of class. So cross your fingers! But we're still applying for the program, but probable wont get it. But I know that whatever happens will be what is best.

Her favorite toy at the moment, she rolls all over to chase it if it rolls away.

Social.

I stay home with Emerson, and she's never really been around other babies/children. I mean she see's her cousins like twice a month and she goes to the nursery at church on Sundays. But other than that it's really it. Well last night, we went to our bible study at Choices PRC and most of the girls their are still pregnant, but there are about 6 of us who have already had babies. Well 2 of the babies were sitting in the floor playing so we tried putting Emerson with them, one is 9 months old and the other is 6 months, Emerson is 5 1/2 months. We sat her down and the other babies were trying to give her toys/take toys from her. Then, She turned around and reached for Hunter to pick her up. He did. Then He sat down in the floor with the other babies and Emerson in his lap, the other babies kept trying to give Emerson toys and play with her, but nope, she'd turn away and want her daddy. It's probably dumb to worry about this so soon, but could Emerson not going to daycare and being around other babies effect her social skills? I've never really thought of it, I just stay home with her, because it's cheaper right now financially. She may be too young still to interact with other children, but i'm afraid she wont ever want to play with other kids, she'll always just want to play with me or hunter. When did yalls babies start 'socializing' and playing with other babies? For the moms that stay home, do your babies get interaction with other children?

Where we are.

Still living at my moms. On the waiting list for apartments. Trying to sale Hunter's truck. I still don't have a job. My car broke down. Hunter's truck wouldn't start. Hunter's working 6 days a week. Emerson's teething and waking up a ton at night. It's been a rough week month. I just keep telling myself, this will eventually pass. Eventually.

But! On the plus side we did buy a convertible car seat! It's the Graco MyRide 65 Safe Surround. It was on sale at Target.com and we still had gift cards from our shower so we decided to go ahead and get it, we only paid like $70 out of pocket. Which is pretty good for a car seat that Rear faces until 40 lbs and Forward faces until 65 lbs!
Here she is in it! She falls asleep every time we put her in it! Must be comfy!